Learning Lessons

It feels like I am accelerating at an incredible pace and learning new things about myself and my world everyday.  But through all of the new lessons one theme keeps popping out.  I can't do everything on my own and I have trying for too long to run my own race.  I am horrible about asking for help.  I would rather sit back and figure out how do something on my own, even if it takes longer,  than to ask for help.  Or if it seems like something is impossible then I don't try.

Well, that way of doing things got me to a unhealthy place in a number of ways and I finally came to a realization that how I was eating had become a destructive behavior.  I needed help.  I knew from  the past that I could not do it on my own.  I needed to ask for help

I had to do something, so I wrote a Facebook message to a high school friend asking for help. I had been watching her journey over the last year or so and was inspired by what she had accomplished.  Inspired or not it was still a difficult message to write. I wrote and rewrote and deleted the message countless times.  Who knew hitting send could be so hard?  Each time I would hover over the send button I would get this wave of anxiety and hit cancel instead.   Did I mention that I have a hard time asking for help?  Finally I just did it.  I hovered over the send, closed my eyes, and click the button.  One click changed my life.  Yes, the support and awesomeness that came in reply was phenomenal, but the act of hitting send, the act of asking for help, that is what changed my life.

So, what is holding you back?  Where in your life do you need to hit the send button? We are all in this life together, so let's live it together!